People who hve Borderline Personality Disorder are highly sensitive and very emotional. This is the common cause why they have a tendency of unpredictable outburst of rage. But to some who have learned to survive and live life with this disorder, they have learned to somehow manage this weakness and turn it into strength. Although the theory that a borderline has psychic capabilities of reading others feelings is not yet proven by any scientific studies, I chose to believe in it because somehow I got myself the answers that I have been looking for. Questions I have in mind but never brought it up because they may think I’m crazy.
I have certain abilities that I am capable of doing, which in that time I didn’t considered as a Psychic Ability. Not until I learned what an emotional empath is all about. In knowing what exactly an empath is, I finally found an explanation of my behavior.
Whenever a friend is having a big problem, they tend to turn to me for comfort, advice, or just someone who will listen. And I always give the time and the attention they need simply because I know and felt how painful it is when no one cared to listen, understand, and would just jump into conclusion and judgement without considering what you are feeling. Some would also give you advice based only on what is right and wrong not even thinking that we knew already what’s right and wrong but sought advice because we are having a hard time doing what’s right in consideration of what we currently feel.
Listening to a friend unloading her heartaches, I also feel a portion of what they feel. I feel the pain they felt and even cry with them. I used to think it was just normal when you are showing empathy with a person. But showing empathy is merely putting yourself in the other person’s shoe. A normal person would simply imagine the situation in order to show empathy and not to the extent of sharing the emotion that person is feeling.
There are times when I could feel if someone doesn’t like me or if that someone will do something bad on me eventhough I just met that person. I tend to keep it within me everytime I felt it because I coudn’t even give a justifiable reason about it. I just felt it right at that moment and then eventually I will just discover I was right on the first place. There are also times when I knew what a person is going to say even though he was only half way of what he is saying. I couldn’t even explain how I did it, I just felt it. I could also easily determine what emotions a person is trying to conceal by the look of their eyes, their tone of voice, facial expression, gestures, and reading between the lines of the words they spoke.
In a romantic relationship, this ability became more evident. Even though I am miles away from my partner and clueless of what is happening. I don’t even have a small suspicion in mind that time but I would suddenly feel something strange if he is doing something that would hurt me. When I felt that strange feeling, I can’t give myself an answer why I felt it. I will then discover in the future that again that strange feeling I felt that time was also the time my partner is doing something behind my back. I could also feel if my partner is lying to me or hiding something but I don’t know what it is so I chose again to keep it within me rather than ask about it because if I let them know, they would just say I am being paranoid or overly suspicious. I myself don’t trust this strange feeling all the time because I know when I am in distress and unable to control my own feelings, I lose the ability of reading other’s feelings.
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Lately, I adopted a stray cat who became so attached to me. They told me it is common for a trainer and his pet to have a special connection and would understand each other. But the time when I came to visit a friend’s house in the next town bringing my cat with me, I lost him while he played with other cats. It is time to head back home but I can’t find my cat anywhere and with tears flowing down my eyes, I decided to leave without him. That night I was so worried even though people around me kept assuring that we will head back in the morning to find him. And again I felt this strange feeling. I felt that my cat is scared and crying out for me, finding me, and at the same time felt I betrayed him. So at the middle of the night, I took the risk of going out to find my cat. I know he wouldn’t be far in the place where he last saw me. And I found him there, crying out loud calling for me. He seemed relieved that he’s back with me, but he was distant from me for a week. He felt betrayed and it took me a while to gain his trust.
So what is an empath and why is it connected with Borderline Personality Disorder?
Empaths are highly sensitive, finely tuned instruments when it comes to emotions. They feel everything, sometimes to an extreme, and are less apt to intellectualize feelings. Intuition is the filter through which they experience the world. Empaths are naturally giving, spiritually attuned, and good listeners. If you want heart, empaths have got it. Through thick and thin, they’re there for you, world-class nurturers. The trademark of empaths is that they know where you’re coming from.
Empaths characteristics are common to Borderline Personality Disorder Patients who are also highly emotional and overly sensitive.
Intuition is an innate “sense” of events, thoughts, activities or feelings of others that are outside of the normal human ability to preceive them. For example, someone with extraordinary intuition may have a very strong feeling that someone they just met has drinking problem even though the person shows no outward appearance of being alcoholic. An intuitive person has a borderline psychic perception.
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